A New rainy day
Another day of work with Rich... 6 meetings... every 2 hours a new group comes. Came here at 9 am and will done by 9pm. I am calm and weary… thinking about different facts of life.
I think more and more of the fact that unless there is a place prepared in my life for something new nothing new will actually happen. I am thinking more and more about the things that clear space for new opportunities...
I guess those can be things like disasters and destructions of something that already exist as well as my sincere honest desire to get rid of the old to prepare a place for something new.
God is the source of renovation and every good thing... I guess he will rob me of some bad things that hinder my growth from time to time if He needs to. But will I be his ally in this process, will I make myself ready... voluntarily, willingly?... Will I be his friend and partner with Him in riding my life of the old things that hinders my growth?
Frankly, too many times I consider many of those old things not so bad all together to feel the need to change them, though I can not call them the best and perfects - the way the will of God is for my life is. May be this is why it is so difficult to let them go…
If it is not broken, do not fix it, they say. But is this really about us? Can this really truly be said about our inner person, our soul, our life? I do feel broken... I do feel like I need fixing... although I try to work it all out. "Oh, look - It works!" I may say to myself... but is it really not broken after all... How much more fixing will I honestly, willingly allow to happen, to be done by God in my life? I guess it will depend on how I answer the question about the Old and the New.
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